all past will always become a moment

:')

2010-08-23T22:40:00.000+07:00

"...... that song's painting my feeling when i met him.reminds me of him 'till now.how i can hardly breath,when he walks by.how i can't hide my smile,when he laugh.and how i cry,when he touch my head softly ,as a friend.I miss him,Even it's really hard for me to reach.."

whatever.

2010-06-12T14:01:00.002+07:00

Do you ever think of me?
Do you ever cry yourself to sleep in the middle of the night ?
when you awake....are you calling out my name?
its only me missing you...

Forget HIM..
Forget his name, Forget his face,Forget the love you once knew,REMEMBER he has someone new, Forget him when he played your song,REMEMBER when you cry all night long,Forget how close you two were,REMEMBER he had chosen her,Forget you memorized his walk,Forget the way he used to say, REMEMBER he has gone away,Forget his laugh,Forget his grin,Forget the way he held you tight , REMEMBER he's with her tonight,Forget the time that went so fast,Forget the love that moved it's past , Forget he said "he'd leave you,NEVER"

REMEMBER , that he's GONE FOREVER

make up my mind :D

2010-06-11T19:36:00.002+07:00

okeoke , gilaa hari ini gue rajin banget ngepost ampe 3 ama yang ini , tp gpp deh kurang kerjaan juga...
gue abis balik dari renang di hotel sunlake ama anakanak , rameee ,mayan deh ....

dan sekarang gue uda ubah cara berfikir gue ttg. org yang tadi bisa narik hati gue padahal gatau apa2,yaudah gue lupain aja toh gue ga kenal sama skali ama dy , drpada ntar sakit ati sendiri hehe :D

sekarang , gue mau jalanin ari aja deh gausah mikir yang ribet ribet , liat yang ad di depan aja , terus pilih yang bener , jangan ampe ke bablasan kayaaaa.......... (sensor) hahaha

hmmm... be strong,girl ..

quotes

2010-06-11T12:05:00.002+07:00

The past is gone,you will never have it back,but memories will always remain in your heart.

Every girl needs that special someone to help her laugh,when she think she'll never smile again

Don't get shaken, don't drop your guard,stay fully alert. Don't get distracted for a single moment

what hurts the most about being lied to is knowing you weren't worth the truth

first glace? hmm......

2010-06-11T11:38:00.002+07:00

soal si itu (post sebelum ini) yaah gue juga gatau yah , gue uda denger juga sebenernya , gimana dia nanggepin semua ini , bisa dibilang type gue ama dia sama , yaah bosen tapi namanya orang? msalahnya gue kalo uda bener2 pas itu yang repot kaya masalah seseorang yang jauh disana yang ampe sekarang ati gue masih berasa kaya nungguin dia , huaa... terlalu sayang salah , nggak malah bosen , kupluk banget dah..

nah hari ini , yaah bisa dibilang ada yang berbeda dimana gue ketemu ama seseorang yang .....gue sendiri tuh juga ga kenal nama , alamat , skolah mana , yah apalagi tau nomor hape .Aneh banget gue ngerasa gimanaa gitu , bisa dibilang ati gue gila , dan guenya juga sih , haha ..macam apa coba gue.. tapi itu yang terjadi sama gue sekarang bahkan gue senyum senyum sendiri daritadi cuman garagara baru liat dia , OHMYGOD , ini perasaan yang udah lamaa banget ga pernah gue rasain setelah "seseorang disana" yang uda ambil kontrol perasaan gue , apakah dia orang yang ati gue tunggu setelah "dy" .. siapa yang tau , tapi intinya .... tuh orang baru seakan akan ngapus semua perasaan gue yang uda rusak di masalalu , perasaan gue yang uda ga tau gimana rasanya .. BAHKAN rasa gue ama "seseorang disana" segitunya kah ...
gue sendiri jujur , bengong pula , segininya gue ama tuh orang yang gue ga tau asal usulnya darimanaa...
Masa secepet ini Tuhan ngasih gue jalan ttg apa yang gue minta??
gila yah bahkan baru liat postur badannya yaa, itu uda buat gue ngegreget bgt , PAS bgt.. mungkin kesannya gue maniak banget ya denger pernyataan itu , tapi itu yang terjadi, biasanya kekurusan lah .. yang pas yang cuman badan "seseorang disana" dan sekarang? gue ketemu yang pas juga tapi sayang , gue gatau .... bagaimana kelanjutannya .

gilaaaa.. YOLANDA sadarrrr lah sadaar , gue ga se desperate itu juga , help! satu hal :

gue berharap

i .. just .. want .. you .. to .. know .. that .....

2010-06-07T00:02:00.003+07:00

thanks for everything ,
thanks for your time to cheer me up ,
thanks for your Kindness ,
thanks for sweet memories that you gave to me

one thing that i wanna to tell you that .. i'm happy to know that i'm so special in your eyes
you know me better than anyone else :')
you almost know EVERYTHING about me , yeah "almost"
i can't say "you know everything about me" because there are parts about me that no one knows and i can't tell you what ..
even you know my bad side , bad life of me .. gees, i don't know how to say this but
trust me , i hate this part , i hate when i have to choose something or even..

someone :'(

i know , you'll understand

Y♥

Track

2010-06-06T10:55:00.003+07:00

How to hide my sadness
The place where I lost you
The fragrance of your hair scatters hastily
I already cannot catch up
With my eyes closed, I can still see
The traces of your departure
I keep searching under the moonlight
For that silhouette that I’m thinking of
If breaking up can be said to be the starting point of pain
Then before the final destination point, I’m willing to love once again
I want to tell you, the love that I dare not express
Will anyone be able to understand
I will be staring off into space, then I will forget you
And then tightly close my eyes
Thinking about that day, when there will be someone who’ll take your place
So that I will not think about you anymore
I will be staring off into space, then I will break into a smile
And then tightly close my eyes
Thinking once again, your tender face
Before I forget,The tears in my heart, have blurred my vision
You almost can’t see it anymore

sad quotes : )

2010-04-06T23:45:00.002+07:00

Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion - Javan

I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived. - Margaret Mitchell

For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, 'It might have been. - John Greenleaf Whittier

My feeling is that there is nothing in life but refraining from hurting others, and comforting those who are sad. - Olive Schreiner

i survived..

2010-04-05T21:19:00.002+07:00

yaah mungkin ga banyak yang tau ini semua,dan gue nggak tau mau cerita dimana lagi,makanya sekarang gue mulai nge-post lagi..
iya, gue tau taon ini gue lagi kurang bagus , dimana mulai menginjak tanggal 1 januari 2010 aja uda jelek banget rasanya, ati gue ancur'an di awal-awal ini , yaah,mngkin dngan permulaan yang ga baik dan smua yang mulai bertolak belakang gue ga sharusnya sakit ati sih , karena dari sebelumnya gue bakal tau, ini konsekwensinya tapi namanya perasaan.. sakit yah sakit,tapi sudahlah,uda lewat :')

yang kedua pun balik , seseorang dari masalalu gue juga, seseorang yang uda ambil banyak air mata gue,seseorang yang uda ngancurin lebih banyak harapan dan kesenangan gue ,orang yang udah ngebuat gue ngerusak diri gue sendiri, orang yang mengajarkan gue sesuatu yang sangat berharga dihidup gue, merasa kehilangan ,dan kesedihan serta keterpurukan selama bertahuntahun,mungkin itu terdengar "yool,lebay banget sih lu". Oke , mungkin gue qlo jadi orang itu,trus gue ngeliat dy begitu, gue akan mengatakan hal yang sama .. Tapi , itu benerbener dsar yang gue rasain , dimana air mata gue bakal keluar qlo berkaitan dengan dia , gue sekarang juga ga berhak mengutarakan lagi isi hati gue yang kaya gini , tapi ini juga yang gue rasain sekarang ...

akhirnya , gue berfikir.. (bagus yol! sekarang lw uda bener' ngelupain dy,gue salut dngan diri gue sndiri!! nice!)
dan ternyata gue salah , mungkin gue udah ga nginget dy skitar stengah taon .. sebelumnya gue ud terpuruk skitar 2 taon lebih , dan HANYA dengan beberapa kata di SMS suatu hari , di sekolah... gue pun menangis meraung raung, tanpa bisa gue kontrol rasa sedih dan air mata gue , malu? banget .. gue malu sama diri gue sndiri , yang biasa nya gue bisa tahan cuman netesin air mata , kalo mau nangis malah di kamar gue meraung,. Sekarang? disekolah dimana lagi pelajaran B.ind bisa kepikir? mata gue smbab dan smua mata tertuju sama gue ..
gue bersyukur banget punya temen' kaya SAINTTRIO , yang buat gue tenang :)

dan hari ini...?
bahkan gue liat dia , meski dari jendela .. di otak gue ngeflashback masa' gue dulu , dan ternyata pas gue sadar? smua ga seindah itu , bahkan gue langsung lemes dan ga bisa apa' gue hanya di kelas ... dan dia? di depan kelas lagi ngobrol.!
gue cuman bisa ngedenger suara dya yang begitu familiar di kuping gue , yang begitu hangat ketika gue denger , suara yang dlu sering , dan hampir setiap hari menyanyikan gue sbuah lagu ...

already gone

2010-03-29T15:32:00.001+07:00

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even without fists held high, yeah
Never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now
I can't stop

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, Oooo, oh
Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone...

me..?

2010-03-28T20:08:00.000+07:00

From every wound there is a scar, and every scar tells a story. A story that says, I survived.

unekunek

2010-03-28T03:24:00.002+07:00

Biarlah air mata ini
puas mengalir
karena sudah tertahan amat sangat lama
hanya rasa sakit yang tersisa
dan pahit yang menyiksa batin ini secara perlahan
saat ku melihatmu semakin jauh dan jauh
apa kamu tahu rasa ini?
ingin memanggil nama mu untuk terakhirnya
bahkan rasanya untuk melihat kepergianmu itu harapan terbesarku ...
namun,selama ini aku menyadari bahwa bayang bayangmu tidaklah kunjung pergi dariku
melainkan bersembunyi saja , yang sesekali akan kembali muncul
dan mengingatkanku selalu

untouchable

2009-12-09T13:09:00.002+07:00

Untouchable like
A distant diamond sky
Mmm
I'm reaching out
And I just
Can't tell you why
I'm caught up in you
I'm caught up in you

Untouchable burning
Brighter than the sun
And when you're close
I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like
A million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of heaven

It's half full
And I won't wait here
All day
I know you're saying
That you'd be here
Anyway

But you're
Untouchable burning
Brighter than the sun
Now that you're close
I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like
A million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta, come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on

Oh
In the middle of the night
We could form this dream
I wanna feel you
By my side
Standing next to me
You gotta, come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of heaven

Oh, oh
Oh, oh
I'm caught
Up in you
Oh, oh
Oh, oh
Oh, oh

Untouchable burning
Brighter than the sun
And when you're close
I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like
A million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Oh, ohwa, oh

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like
A million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta, come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of heaven

music of my heart -N'sync

2009-12-09T13:09:00.001+07:00

You'll never know
What you've done for me
What your faith in me
Has done for my soul
And you'll never know
the gift you've given me
I'll carry it with me, yeah

Through all the days ahead
I think of days before
You made me hope for something better
and made me reach for something more

CHORUS
You taught me to run
You taught me to fly
Help me to free the me inside
Help me hear the music of my heart
Help me hear the music of my heart
You opened my eyes
You opened the door
To something I've never known before
And your love
Is the music of my heart

Gloria:
You were the one
Always on my side
Always standing by
Seeing me through

You were the song that always made me sing
I'm singing this for you
Everywhere I go
I think of where I've been
And of the one who knew me better
Than anyone ever will again

CHORUS

What you taught me
Only your love could ever teach me
You got through when no one could reach me before
'Cus you always saw in me
All the best that I could be
It was you who set me free

CHORUS

Is the music of my heart

complicated

2009-12-03T12:30:00.002+07:00

wueh .. kayanya niat lgi gue buat nge-blog , tapi nggak tau juga sih ya..
Sumpah .. gue bete banget hari ini , ga tau knapa , yaah biasa sih . emang lgi masa bete , tp gue betenya qlo lagi begini , pikiran gue juga nggak karuan , jadinya gue ga bsa mendem prasaan gue . KESEL bgt dah ah ..

apalagi ditambah qlo liat "orang" yang gue ga mau liat HAHA (yah iya lah yah jadi bete)
duh duh duh , ditambah gue lagi ULANGAN umum , gilaaaak makin males aja kayanya ngejalanin hari , ati juga ga percaya , bete , kesel , ulangan , hoalaaah .. malesin banget sih !!

bisa' nih isinya hasil uring-uringan gue doang neh .. tapi emang bener sih , ada-ada aja gitu yang bisa buat gue curigain , gimana ga mau makin emosi?

somebody's me

2009-12-01T19:09:00.003+07:00

gue skarang ni , lagi demen banget lagunya enrique iglesias - somebody's me .. ngga tau knapa pas pertama kali dnger gua uda jatuh cintrong gitu wkwkwk ..
ga keitung kali gua dngerin ini lagu berapa kali , sebelumnya gue suka ama lagunya dia juga yang judulnya hero .
di lagu somebody's me ini , ntah knapa pas gue dnger bagian ini

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
Because you're in my memory
You, will you remember me
And before you set me free
Oh listen please

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that someday you will see
That Somebody's Me

dibagian yang merah ntuh .. kayanya gimanaaa gitu , makanya makin demen gue . hehehe :)

lalala.. (ups kaya siapa--')

2009-11-29T11:21:00.000+07:00

Seneng aja deh :)

happy the way you love me .

2009-11-28T08:05:00.002+07:00

Gue mensyukuri dengan apa yang gue uda dapetin sekarang ini .
gue akan belajar menjadi yang terbaik .
gue harap , ini semua yang terindah buat gue untuk
terakhir kalinya :)

love,
yoolandW

2009-11-26T18:56:00.000+07:00

There's nothing left to prove

long time

2009-11-25T18:25:00.002+07:00

udah lama banget nggak ngepost , jadi bingung mau ngomong apa . Bisnya uda kebanyakan sih hehe ..
emmm.. well , skarang gua ud 17 taon boo , tgl 9 nov ini gue resmi 17 taon
sweet sventeen gua di sport club tgl 13 nov nya .

di ultah gua yg ke 17 ini lah sangat special .. thanks to all my friends sih , yg dateng jam 12 malem ke rumah , buat gua shock ampir mau mati (lebay) tapi gua sneng , hehehe :)
gua nggak nyangka aja mereka dateng , soalnya kebesokkannya tuh snen , harus skolah :P
amad sangat trima kasih gue ..

apa lagi yaay ..gua juga sneng di skolah pas snennya , SAINT TRIO (Edu , Sally , Timothy ) juga kasih kejutan gue dibeliin kue doraemon , sayang blom smpet makan tuh kue ud dijadiin alat buat dipeper ke muka gue (NICE!)

masih banyak yang mau gue ungkapin sbetulnya soal perasaan gue , tapi yaudalah .. jangan dibahas skarang :D

tapi intinya adalah .. UDA MAJU gue wkwk , bayangan lo uda nggak ada lagi .. hyuuuu~

:')

2009-09-18T07:51:00.000+07:00

Far in the light, I can see it
In every scene of the night
A tiny feather of love

I gotta go
Destiny never finds the way for me, my love

Even in the night I see your face, in the dark
So I never lose my way to you
I never close my heart
The light is always there

Time goes by, we can never stay the same
Now we've come so far from love memory
Though your smile has gone, we will never be apart
In our hearts we are one, for love melody
The future arrives with your love

Willing to go to the place
Where you never need to cry
I'll take you there

Willing to find an answer
In all the winding road we have come through

In the heat of summer, cold of winter, I'm here
So you never lose your way to me
Never close your heart
Your light is always here

Time goes by, we can never stay the same
In the shades of hope, in love memory
Though your smile has gone, we will never be apart
In our hearts we can hear the love melody
The future still shines, close to you

Song of night

2009-09-17T15:58:00.000+07:00

In the night sky, they twinkle
The far stars of gold
The same color as the small bird
that looked up in my dream last night
In the sleepless night,
I sing this song alone
Together with the blowing wind,
I fly riding on my thoughts
In the night sky, it sparkles
The distant moon of silver
The same color as the wild rose
that was blooming in my dream last night
In the gentle night,
I sing this song alone
Let me sing with you tomorrow
Riding the wings of dreams
In the gentle night,
I sing this song alone
Let me sing with you tomorrow
Riding the wings of dreams

over :D

2009-09-15T19:27:00.002+07:00

nyuuuuuu~
semua uda berakhir , cape ah diem mlu dia kadaan gua yang desperatooos kaya dulu mulu , yah gua tau cuman dia yang bisa buat hati gua dari batu jadi mleleh . Yaaah jadi gua tinggal ngejauhin sama ngelupain segala halnya (meskipun gua tau itu amatlah sulit) tapi kenapa nggak? sekarang sebetulnya gua takut menghadapi perasaan gua yang sekarang , perasaan yang nggak bisa ditebak maunya apa -.-
kaya perasaan gua sebelum ketemu 'die' , hampa dan tidak berperasaan :) awalnya gua takut perasaan itu balik , tapi sekarang uda balik dan gua ngerasa lebih nyaman , jadinya gua ga usah mikir' soal perasaan , JUST HAVE FUN skarang mah ! hahahaha :D

oiya , meski gua uda berusaha lupa , tapi sih pas maren itu gua ngerasa perasaan gua mulai bertolak belakang , jadi batu sesaat pas ngadepin die , awalnya sneng dan pede sih gua , tapi ujung' mood gua brubah juga (sama aja) trus pas liat dia , kyaaaaaa~ (kawaaaai na) hehehe.
tapi uda ah , move on beybeeeeh ~
dan gua rasa lebih baik gua nggak mikir yang serius' karena gua tau perasaan gua nggak siap buat hal itu . nyeeeeehehe ~

useless

2009-09-11T21:12:00.002+07:00

You'll always be a part of me

itu kata yang pas banget memang buat keadaan gue.Gua menjalan hidup tanpa kehadiran cinta yang setia selama dia uda nggak ada di khidupan gua , gua berusaha sebisa gua menahan senyum gua berharap gua bisa menutupi semuanya yang gua rasain , rasa sedih , rasa sendiri , rasa sesel yang gua rasa selama ini , ternyata itu ngebuat gua bener-bener sakit buat menghadapi ini semua , gua tyap harinya meyakinkan hati gua ndiri seakan ada 2 otak cara berfikir yang berbeda , yaitu hati gua slalu ada hanya untuk dia sedangkan gua tau , dia nggak akan pernah tinggal demi gua (lagi),gua meyakinkan hati gua trus menerus , karena gua ngerasa semua ini udah cukup buat gua . gua harus move on dari keadaan lama gua , hari uda lewat , hidup gua sibuk dengan aktifitas yang menurut gua banyak . lama-lama hati gua pun mulai melupakannya , mungkin nggak 100% gua bisa lupa, tp itu gua uda sneng banget bisa bener-bener ga usah sedih-sedih mlu , meski gua tau hati gua ada saatnya dia bangun dan nginget dia lagi , saat ngedenger lagu2 masa lalu ato ngedenger nama dia to bahkan ngeliat dia . Tp ngga bertahan lama ...

sekarang? gua ngerasa , dimana gua mulai rindu akan sosok dia , nggak lama dia akan dateng lagi di kehidupan gua , gua hanya rindu , rindu sosok orang yang ud masuk dlm hati gua , dimana hati gua slalu nunggu dan nunggu seakan ada kepastian yang pasti sama dia . padahal semua hanya "mimpi" (sigh) . Dan saat dia datang?? seakan hati ini menang dan mendominasi badan serta hati gua . Gua nggak bisa ngapa-ngapain , slain smua kenangan gua yang uda bener-bener gua kubur dengan usaha yang keras kembali muncul tanpa ada satu yang gua lewatin ... Dia bener-bener uda ngancurin hidup gua banget ,tpi karena dia juga , gua diajarin gimana cinta ama seseorang begitu dalam , belajar untuk setia pada seseorang , diajarin rasanya menyesal dan menangis tiap malam begitu kepikiran yang terakhir gua diajarin bagaimana bertahan dan mengambil suatu keputusan dalam hidup..

Breaking through the clouds, I tried hard to run to you
Just when love arrived, you were already in someone else’s arms

09.09.09

2009-09-09T21:45:00.001+07:00

Looking into the future as much as possible during an endless dream
I found someone who wasn’t me beside you, laughing
I arrived at the small park which I found with you
On that day, us two on a swing got closer to the sky

We are similar friends, and are escaping wanting to catch each other
We are about to be lost for the first time, and we know what things we don’t want to lose

I’m disheartened that people don’t understand us, and aren’t about to try to
You wanted to try tracing a keyboard softly
We were probably playing together, nobody knows the future

Several funny stories are missed chances to say words of love
The setting sun dyes the way home as we approach the always cheap candy store
Buying different flavours of ice cream, we do things buy ourselves
The flavour that the other one of us chose, we want
For me yours, and for you mine

When we become close, these occurrences get rounded off, and being separated becomes scary
We kiss so that we can escape from this drying reality

Even if we’re not desiring what comes next, the wind will flip over a page as our opportunity stands still
My happiness is your happiness, but it’s not limited to that
When we played together, did we get past our differences?

If we could even love discord, then I’m sure we could stay at each other’s side, don’t you think? Forever…
Were you shy holding in your right hand overcut bangs?
It too was a lovable action, I wonder if I’m forgetting it

09.09.09

2009-09-09T21:33:00.002+07:00

bingung mau nulis apa .. tapi pengen nulis tapi bingung . bzzt
haha , insting gua bener loh . *biasa lah ngomongin masalah skolah*
anak-anak kepo yang cuman bisa ngomongin orang doang wkwk,
yang paling bebacot yah cuman satu orang yang laen cuman kaya nambah'in
ama tuh cwo satu emang gua uda paling benci , dengan LAGAKnya yang
SOK MATURE ma bisa dipercaya di antara temen2nya padahal yang paling gajelas abis .
beraninya bebacot doang dr belakang , untung aja dari dlu gua ga pernah ngomong sama dia
sejak *sensor*

qlo tau masalah-masalah orang belakangan ini kok kenapa kayanya
complicated banget yah ?
kayanya sok-sok ribet bener dah . untung aja masalah gua sih nggak ada yang macem2 , hidup gua
uda lebih tenang dari yang dlu . kan uda gua bilang , qlo gua uda ga deket .
idup gua mendingan deh (sigh) mending gini deh jaga jarak biar ga kebawa2 gua .
tapi sih ga bisa bebas juga sih , kan mulutnya pada kaya ember bolong
macem-macem dah personality nya tapi sih secara garis besar sama -.-
ada yang plin plan , geer tingkat tinggi , playboy , kasar , banyak bacot , rese , ga jelas gayanya .
tapi bodo amad deh ngga peduli gua . mang siapa?
cuman yang gua keselin yahhh itu , nyampurin and komenin idup gue aje . wkwkwk

sakura :'(

2009-09-07T20:13:00.001+07:00

hoaaah , bisa diliat dari judulnya "sakura" maksutnya sih cardcaptor sakura .. pada tau kan pastinyaaaa?
yah itu bisa dibilang anime pertama gua selaen bleach yang gua suka , inget banget dlu gua masi sd , dmen banget gua nonton di tv . tp abis itu gua nntn lagi (nggak tau kenapa)
dan skarang akhirnya gua suruh nko gua donlod-in filmnya ampe tamat ..
aaaannnnnd YATAAAA! gua kelar kemaren dan pas saatnya gua sakit (again) :'( dan entah kenapa gua menitikkan aer mata , dari dlu gua slalu dmen ama li shaorannya , dan gua terenyut liat li shaoran yang suka ama sakura , yang bkin gua slalu keinget pas endingnya , dimana shaoran balik ke hongkong dan sakura ditinggal dengan teddy bear yang dibuat shaoran di tangan sakura , ending nya gimaaaaaaaaaanaaa gitu , hiiks .. tapi top abis lah , gua suka !!! sayang uda tamat !!

li shaoran :D

iseng-iseng aja

2009-09-04T17:12:00.003+07:00

yaah , cuman iseng doang , pas liat blog orang , ada pertanyaan gitu jadi iseng jawab dh :D

SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 110 films, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 215 films on this list. Copy this list, go to your own Facebook account, paste this as a note. Then, put x's next to the films you've seen, add them up, change the header adding your number, and click post at the bottom. Have fun.

Teen/ Romance:
( ) The Cinderella Story
( ) Another Cinderella Story
(x) Step Up
(x) Step Up 2
(x) High School Musical
(x) High School Musical 2
(x) High School Musical 3
( ) Hannah Montana Movie [waiting]
(x) Enchanted
( ) Syndey White
Total: 6

( ) She's the Man
( ) License to Wed
( ) The Break-up
( ) 13 going to 30
( ) 27 Dresses
( ) P.s I Love You
() Made of Honour
(x) What Happens in Vegas
(x) Get Smart
( ) The Princess Brides
Total: 2

( ) Camp Rock
( ) Wild Child
( ) Ella Enchanted
( ) The Princess Diaries
( ) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
( ) First Dates
( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Hotel For Dogs (not yet !)
( ) Just Married
( ) Freaky Friday
Total: 0

( ) The Hot Chick
( ) Sleepover
(x) Confessions Of a Shopaholic
(x) Twilight
( ) Nancy Drew
( ) The Devil Wears Prada
( ) No Reservations
( ) Perfect Man
( ) Australia
( ) Never Been Kissed
Total: 2

Comedy/Humour:
(x) Yes Man
(x) Bedtimes Story
( ) The Pink Panther
( ) The Pink Panther 2
(x) Marley & Me
( ) Cheetah Girls
( ) Cheetah Girls 2
( ) Bratz
( ) Haunted Mansion
( ) Mall Cop
Total: 3

(x) The 40-year-old virgin
(x) Night in the Museum
(x) Night in the Museum 2
(x) Evan Almighty
( ) Bruce Almighty
( ) White Chicks
( ) Neverending Story
( ) Meet the Spartans
( ) Meet the Parents
( ) Meet the Fockers
Total: 4

( ) Scream
( ) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
( ) Scary Movie
( ) Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
(x) Scary Movie 4
( ) American Pie
( ) American Pie 2
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total: 1

Adventures:
(x) Harry Potter 1: The Sorcerer’s Stone
(x) Harry Potter 2: The Secret Chamber
(x) Harry Potter 3: Prisoner of Azkaban
(x) Harry Potter 4: Goblet of Fire
(x) Harry Potter 5: Order of Phoenix
( ) Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
( ) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
( ) Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
(x) Chronicles Of Narnia: The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
(x) Chronicles Of Narnia: Prince Caspian
Total: 7

( ) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
( ) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
( ) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
(x) Indiana Jones and the Crystal Skull
(x) The Mummy
( ) The Mummy 2
(x) The Mummy 3
(x) Journey to the Center of Earth
(x) City of Ember
( ) Finding Neverland
Total: 5

( ) Pirates of the Caribbean
( ) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
( ) Pirates of the Caribbean 3: At World's end.
( )X-Men
( ) X-2
( ) X-3
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
(x) Spider Man 3
(x) King Kong
Total: 4

( ) Hellboy
( ) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
( ) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
( ) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
( ) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
( ) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
( ) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
(x) Underdog
( ) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Bat Man - The Dark Knight
Total: 1

Action/ Thriller
( ) The Matrix
( )The Matrix Reloaded
( )The Matrix Revolutions
( )Terminator
( )Terminator 2
( )Terminator 3
( ) Ocean's Eleven
( ) Ocean's Twelve
( ) Ocean’s Thirteen
(x) Casino Royale 007
Total: 1

( ) Bourne Identity
( ) Bourne Supremecy
( ) Underworld
( ) Butterfly Effect
( ) Death Note
( ) Death Note 2
( ) Death Note 3: L Change the world
( ) Resident Evil 1
( ) Resident Evil 2
( ) I, Robot
Total: 0

(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2
(x) Rush Hour 3
( ) Mission Impossible 1
( ) Mission Impossible 2
( ) Mission Impossible 3
(x) I am Legend
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
( ) Signs
Total: 4

Horror:
(x) Saw
(x) Saw II
( ) Saw III
( ) Saw IV
( ) Saw V
( ) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
(x) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
Total: 3

( ) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Final Destination 3
(x) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
(x) Child's Play
() Seed of Chucky
(x) Bride of Chucky
( ) Gothika
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street
Total: 2

( ) The Grudge
( ) The Grudge 2
( ) The Haunted Apartment
( ) Siren
( ) Silent Hill
( x) The Mask
(x ) Son Of The Mask
( ) Alone
( ) Omen
( x) House Of Wax
Total: 3

( x) The Eye
( ) The Eye 2
( x) Shutter
( ) When the Stranger call
( ) The Fog
( ) The Orphanage
( ) The Skulls
( ) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
( ) House of 1000 Corpses
Total: 2

Cartoons:
(x) Lilo & Stitch
(x) Ice Age
( x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
(x ) Madagascar
(x) Madagascar 2
(x) Kung Fu Panda
(x) Bolt
(x) Wall-E
(x ) Monster Inc
(x) Shark Tale
Total: 10

(x ) Shrek
(x ) Shrek 2
(x ) Shrek 3
(x) Finding Nemo
(x) ET
( x) Cars
(x) Ratatouille
( ) Toy Story
( ) Toy Story 2
( ) The Incredibles
Total: 7

Inspirational:
() Little Miss Sunshine
( ) I Am Sam
(x) The Day After Tomorrow
( ) Coach Carter
( ) The Last Dance
( ) To Kill A Mocking Bird
( ) Conrack
( ) Midnight Sun
( ) Little Black Book
( ) Rwanda Genocide
Total: 1

Classics:
( ) Ten Things I Hate About You
(x) Titanic
( ) Romeo & Juliet
( ) Frankenstein
( ) A Midsummer Night Dream
Total: 1
total films :68 that i've watched ! hha

theREAL me .

2009-09-03T20:41:00.003+07:00

hari ini puncak emosi gua keluar juga , enough yah gua ngalah dengan semua ini . Gua CAPE , gua masih ngalah , buat ego dia , gua juga belum spenuhnya berfikir , qlo qta teman baik , mungkin baik , tapi sahabat? not yet , rite? apa loe pikir bisa mendominasi gua dengan perilaku kaya gitu?

oke gua tau , loe secara sadar atau nggak sadar pastinya ada rasa ngeremehin gua . I know that ! tapi tenang gua ga ada rasa gimana kok , karena gua tau dari awal bahkan gua sndiri suka nggak yakin dengan diri gua sndiri . YOU WIN , BITCH !
cukup yeee ... dan aslinya gua begini lah , apa loe pernah nyoba buat tau bagaimana sifat asli gua? NGGAK ! itu lah egois lu , marah semarahnya lu , seakan lu berfikir qta SEMUA takut sama lu ! tapi malah ENEG , apa dengan sikap loe yang kaya gitu , lu lucu? tapi nggak ! lama2 orang JIJIK sama lu !

lu marah maen marah !
gua bales lu . lu kira lu bisa injek2 gua?
JANGAN HARAP !
buat lu , tak !
bacot aje gedein , gua tau lu pinter .!
suatu saat gua buat congor lu diem sribu bahasa , try me .
big FUCK for you TWO!

Meninggalkan semua,membuka lembaran baru

2009-09-02T21:36:00.002+07:00

yaah sesuai judul yang diatas "membuka lembaran baru" pas gua nulis itu gua juga mikir lagi , apa bisa yoll?
gua aja bahkan ngga percaya kalo gua bisa,pernah kan gua nulis dan ngasih tau , qlo kayanya pemikiran gua uda mulai meninggalkan masa lalu gua yang begitu gua sesali untuk gua tinggalin , naru aja peraya diri qlo gua bisa lupa ama tuh cowo , eeeh !? malah keinget lagi ..
gua juga nggak ngelak qlo dibilang , gua masih mikirin dia . PASTI ! bahkan setiap kali gua ngapain selalu keinget dan keinget tapi entah kenapa mungkin sgala kepenasaran gua duluuu yang lom gua dapet , ngebuat gua selalu ngerasa nyesel-nyesel dan sedih terpuruk , sekarang?! bisa dibilang waktu itu , dia uda ngasih hal-hal yang gua rinduin dan gua ingin liat ,denger untuk terakhir kalinya . Mungkin karena itu sekarang hati gua uda rela buat ngelepas dia sepenuhnya meski terkadang sakit kalo ngedenger temen gua bilang ato kasih isyarat "yol, gua tadi liat dia loh" atau denger temen-temen gua nyindir gua dengan nama samaran yang telah kita sepakati . Perasaan rindu kembali dateng sama gua .. gua tau karena rasa itu juga , perasaan gua ketutup buat mencoba atau membuka lembaran baru dalam hidup gua , tapi kenangan itu terlalu berharga buat gua tinggalin , i love the way he look me , love me , even call my name .. oh god, i need strength to leave all my past bout him :'( it's so precious to me.

tapi akibat dari penutupan hati gua ini , gua ngerasa bersyukur juga sama Tuhan , gua ngerasa dengan hal itu ngebuat gua lebih hati2 lagi , dan Tuhan uda ngasih suatu pandangan gua sama seorang cwo , yang dulu ampir buat gua terkecoh , aslinya dia emang "mungkin" ga baik buat gua .. thanks god ! you're my savior .
belakangan ini gag gua pungkiri juga gua ngerasa mulai sepi , tapi gua lebih prefer sepi gini , daripada gua arus sedih dan cape mikirin perasaan orang lain ke gua , yang ternyata endingnya dia hanyalah lelaki yang plin plan , playboy , dan ngga bisa dipercaya . Lebih menyakitkan kan?!

Dan sekarang gua uda mencoba meyakinkan diri gua sendiri , untuk mengubur masa lalu gua
yang gua bersyukur pernah gua alamin dalam hidup gua meski itu uda ngubah jalanhidup gua selama 2 tahun lebih .
thanks boy , little piece of my heart always be yours
but i'm sorry now i must let you go, and it's nice to know you in my life

P.S : I’ve been taught the meaning of regretting the sadness

In the morning of decision

2009-09-01T21:26:00.001+07:00

If you want to do something,
then sketch out your pitiful dream
If you want to do something,
then sketch out your dream
with badly lit, but pleasant love
“You don’t have to pretend, not being very cool suits you well”

The more effort we put into it,
the more fruitless our journey is
Our hands and fleet fly everywhere
like we’re in an elementary school parade
Living life, isn’t it great?
So being laughed at by people definitely feels alright

The real me is shut away in the depths of my heart
36/5 human,
to put it plainly now, we don’t stop
But I’m still acting tough,
I’m still putting up a barrier
I’m fighting with the pain

Times are tough, I wish I could say that;
that’s how I feel
We’re a couple of laughing cowards, acting tough
Even though I’m lonely,
I’m pretending to be just fine
In order to protect myself,
who feels like he’s about to crumble

It shouldn’t be only me that feels these feelings
of having no place to turn to
I’m carrying with me
This rootless loneliness…

I’m indifferent to the pain of others
When I’m really being myself, I get insecure
I hate people, and I think only of being unhappy
I whine about the things that I’m deprived of
I scream and cry like a 3 year old kid
I’m sitting and waiting for my afternoon snack,
called love

Not giving in to the reflection in the asphalt
Walking with my own feet,
I looked at people, and thought
If I could move,
if there was a place I wanted to head to
Then I would walk there with my own feet

There were nights when
I wasn’t sure if I’d be able to
Get my real smile back again
Supported by the warmth of the people that I love
I thought that maybe I should try to believe,
one more time

My mistakes and scars, being perplexed
and the days when I was about to cry
They’re all proof that I lived my life, as myself
If you want to do something, then from now on
Sketch out your pitiful dream,
with more strength than anyone else
Readying your explanation, and holding your head high
without hesitation
Keep on singing about a person called yourself

2009-08-29T20:56:00.000+07:00

A small cup of the worry of leaving
As loneliness stands beside the window
I am behind the door
Pretending that you still haven’t left
Old lands feel as if they have been revisited
The moon’s become round again bit I am even more lonely
At midnight the awakened candlelight
Can’t bear to condemn me
A kettle of wandering
To roam around the world is hard to enter the throat
After you left
The wine warms the memories and nostalgia becomes thin
Water flows to the east
How does one steal time?
Flowers bloom only once and mature
But I missed it
Who is using the pipa to play
A song called “East Wind Breaks”?
The years are peeling off the walls
And I see my childhood
Remember that year we were still just children
But now, the sound of the zither is haunting
And you never even heard about my waiting for you
Who is using the pipa to play
A song called “East Wind Breaks”?
Leaves of the maple dye colour into the story
I can see through to the ending
I once held your hand walking that road outside the bamboo fence
In this time of desolation
Even parting is soundless

saturday night .

2009-08-29T20:38:00.002+07:00

yoohoo.. weekend ! sneng deh tapi keselnya qlo uda sabtu gini , cepet banged ke minggunya yang artinya kebesokkannya? back to school (sigh)
hari ini , yaaah biasa lah gading tapi skarang ama bryna , soalnya dia kan uda di indo lagi , tapi bedanya dia uda kuliah. gile bener dah pdahal lebi muda 2 taon dari gua . hihi :D
hari ini qta nonton the proposal! very good movie , two thumbs up !
truus yah cuman jalan-jalan aja . hehe , nyari anti gores buat psp , trus balik deh , tuumben hari ini jam 7 uda balik soalnya tadi pas nntn bryna di telp emaknya , katanya mau nginep di ancol (enaknyaaa) hehehe :D

hari ini , gua baru ngerasa sepi aja yah .. malem minggu gitu loh ! yaaah apa daya mau dikata , ga ada yang bisa gua harepin sesuai keinginan gua . wkwk .. jia you yoland ! :)

well Hey !

2009-08-28T19:06:00.002+07:00

woohoo! long time no write in my blog , eeem since 2 months ago, rite? wekeke
well Hey , so much i need to say ! wwkwk (apaan sih yol?)

gila , banyak banget yang gua mau critain , mungkin postingan gua hari ini banyak kali yaah , soalnya banyak BANGET hal-hal yang terjadi sama gua . emm , skarang gua uda klas 2 sma lalu gua masuk kelas IPA , amazing banget gua masuk situ , tapi bener-bener berat skaleeeeey , mat merah, fisika? JANGAN ditanya merah , biologi ul pertama gua sih untungnya 76 , ama Kimia gua 92 ! ampe mau pingsan gua liat ulangan gua sndiri .. but tetep , THANKS GOD ! masalah situasi kelas yaaaah , tetep rame banget kelasnya , ampe2 ditanya "ini kelas ipa apa ips sbenernya? kok anaknya bawel banget?" haha , ttep bangga gua . Karena emang gua orangnya bukan orang yang rajin-rajin banget . Bisa dibilang pelajaran ipa yang gua suka Hanyalah BIOLOGI doang -,-
yang laennya? noo..
di kelas ipa ,TRIO tetep bersama hahaha , malah skarang gengnya bukan lagi namanya trio , melainkan ST.TRIO haha (Saint Trio? eeem dunno :D) ditambah Sally sama Timothy jadinya begitu deh hehe.. Makin gaje semakin hari , semangat belajar pun nggak ada.
over all , di skolah masalah sama kelas ipa ato pertemenan sih no prob yah , tpi qlo buat masalah pribadi gua? (sigh) mayan dehhh~
ada tambahan-tambahan nama samaran juga sih , kaya ea , ep (uda lama) , olo , kk , what eff lah banyak dan sekenanya aja haha . Yahh , kaya yang dulu2 deh taon ini pun bahkan gua ga lupa soal ep di hidup gua , baru aja kemaren gua kaya nyadarin diri gua sendiri , qlo ternyata kayanya gua menjalani hidup gua , bayangan ep uda mulai ninggalin gua . saat itu gua sneng banget , gua ngerasa gua bisa ngejalanin hidup gua kaya sblum gue ketemu sama dia bahkan kenal dia , tapi kenyataannya ? hari ini gua ngeliat news .. "DAN kenapa gua sneng?" itu pertanyaan yang gua tanya sama diri gua sndiri.. "Apa dia bakal nyari gua?" Astagadragon kan gua juga bisa mempertanyakan PERTANYAAN yang sangad bodoh itu? haha :D tuh orang emang uda berhasil buat gua ancur-ancuran , dan buat gua dilema sama prinsip gua sndiri , tapi sih slama ini , gua masih bisa rem2 sama perasaan gua sndiri meskipun gua tau pastinya dia sadar.

ada juga seseorang yang ada buat gua qlo gua butuh skarang ini , yaaah yang pastinya temen , tapi temen gua pun punya masalah .. Dan gua skarang ga mau nyeritain masalah gua , krena masalah gua yaah itu aja .. ya kan? hahaha :D

oiya , di taon ini pun , orang-orang yang dulunya gua anggep mereka temen pun , mereka semua berubah banget , gua ngerasa karena ada orang2 baru sih , yaaah bodo lah , itu tmen mereka , gua ga ngarep mereka anggep gua apa .. tapi gua sungguh merasa kasian dan jijik ama mereka .. sbetulnya gua pengen mereka tau siapa yang ada pas mereka butuhin dlu?
yaaaah what eef lagi dah ...

"urusin aja hidup lo2 pada, jangan urusin hidup gua .. terserah gua mau bertemen ma siapa aja , toh gua ga ada hubungannya ama loe kan? jangan omongin gua dari belakang aja tapi qlo perlu ngomong langsung aja sama gua , malah gua lebih respect daripada orang2 yang bisanya maen kroyok, bacot gede , ga rasional pemikirannya , dan pengecut yang bisanya ngomongin dari belakang , gua tau aslinya .. loe hanyalah korban dari lingkungan rumah sama hidup yang kurang,berbicara selayaknya orang yang berani , aslinya? ga bisa dapetin apa yang masing2 loe mau kan? "

percaya ama gua , gua uda kenal dan tau semuanya daripada orang lain.

new hamster called "lucky"

2009-06-13T14:07:00.004+07:00

yeah .. finally this day already come in time wkwkkwkwkw (apasihh?)
hari ini gua ambil raport juga , yah dagdigdug juga , tapi bukan itu yang buat gue pengen cepet2 .. tapi anthony yang mau kasih hamster , yang dia ketemuin di taman .. first gua kira cwe , abis gua suruh liat , katanya sih cwe , eeeeeehhhh.. tadi abis gua ambil rapot , gua ama nyokap tuh nunggu di kantin ngobrol-ngobrol . Nungguin anthony dateng (plis deh lama banged!) pas dia nyampe yah gua kasih kandangnya trus dia ama edwin ambil hamsternya di rumah dia .
pas gua nyoba megang , masih liar banget --a arus jinakkin dlu deh . pas gua coba liat?
guess what? omg! laki-laki , padahal jenisnya udah sama kaya remy , tapi karena masih kecil skitar umur 2 bulanan , jadi masih ga gitu kliatan , apa boleh buat ..
pas mau di pegang lelarian mlu :(

i will call him "lucky"

yaps , soalnya anthony aja nemuin di taman , itu udah suatu keberuntungan dia
karena bisa slamet dari kucing ,anjing , tikus , ato bahkan kendaraan dll.
keberuntungan dia karena sehari sblum dikasi katanya lepas dari kandang
trus anthony liat , jadi ditangkep lagi .Dan keberuntungan gua , hoki gua dan dia
akhirnya bisa ketemu ma gua dan gua ketemu dia :D

this him .. lucky

my superduper lovely hamster, Remy

dari gede aja 3:1 ama lucky , bisa T.KO qlo dijadiin 1 si lucky :D

my saphire hamsters ..

i love you , guys ..
welcome to our home
new member,lucky

i miss you , boy .. can you feel it :'(

2009-06-10T22:40:00.004+07:00

You never know what you have until you lose it, and once you lose it, you can never get it back.

The worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you know you can never have them.

Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but some how feeling warm inside because you're close in heart.

I might not get to see you as often as I'd like, I may not get to hold you in my arms at night, but deep in my heart I know that it's true. No matter what happens... I will always love you.

I'm holding on to something that used to be there hoping it will come back, knowing it won't.

If you love someone more then anything, then distance only matters to the mind, not to the heart.

I want to be with you tonight, tomorrow, and today it can't happen now but it will someday.

Nothing hurts more then waiting since I don't even know what I'm waiting for anymore.

And if you were to say 'come with me', even now I might go.

I have waited for you for 2 years and I will wait for you for the rest of my life. Even if that means I have to give you up for the rest of my life, I will wait for you. I love you that much and nothing will ever change that.

Can miles truly separate you...? If you want to be with someone you love, aren't you already there?

You know you love someone when the mere thought of losing them brings you to tears.

I wish that I could hold you now... I wish that I could touch you now... I wish that I could talk to you... be with you somehow.
Distance between two hearts is not an obstacle... rather a beautiful reminder of just how strong true love can be.

A lot of people walk in and out of my life, but... you're one of the only ones I ever really wanted to stick around.

Just because I moved on doesn't mean I won't be here if you change your mind.

Maybe he's doing the same thing as me... maybe he wants so bad to call me, but just won't because I haven't called him... then again, maybe I shouldn't fill myself with false hope that he might just be missing me like I'm missing him.

You asked me what was wrong, I smiled and said nothing, when you turned around and a tear came down and I whispered to myself... everything is.

I sit here and wonder if you'll ever understand just how much of me belongs to you.

I don't miss you: I miss the person I thought you were.

I'd be happy to come back to you... except it was you that went away.

I think its time I let you go... and that is hard to do because part of me will be in love with you for the rest of my life.
Good-bye's make you think. They make you realize what you've had and what you've lost, and what you've taken for granted.

Good-bye is only truly painful if you know you'll never say hello again.

Never long for anyone from the past. There is a reason why they never made it to your future.

Goodbyes always hurt whether it's the right thing to do or not.

We'll do what we gotta do, see what we gotta see, and if in the end we end up together, then we'll know it was meant to be.

Late at night when all the world is sleeping, I stay up and think of you... and I wish on a star that somewhere you're thinking of me, too.

Even now after all this time, you called me and wanted me I'd say "yes! It's about time what took you so damn long!".

You do something to me that I can't explain, so would I be out of line if I said I miss you?

The few hours I spent with you are worth the thousand hours I spend without you.

This is out last goodbye... it's over, just hear this and then I'll go; you gave me more to live for then you'll ever know.

Missing you isn't the problem, it's wondering if you'll ever come back that's killing me.

It's been quite awhile... I must say I miss our friendship. I miss you, but what I really miss the most is not just you or us but how it all was.

I miss the talks we used to have, I miss the voice I used to hear... I miss hearing your crazy but cool stories, and above all these... I just miss you!

I ofter catch myself constantly wondering how you are, sitting alone with my mind set so far, reminiscing about your smile, voice and touch, damn this life... I'm missing you too much!

I get this feelings we'll be together again. No straight lines make up my life, all roads have bends. No clear cut begging's and so far no dead ends.

Today was just one of those days where everything I did reminded me of you and every song I heard somehow related to you. I hate days like today, because they remind me of the one thing I dont have.

I called because I wanted you to know that despite everything that' happened and all the miles between us right now, I still think about the way it was in the beginning.

If some thing happens and you lose me, please don' think that' the end, come and find again.

I know you've been busy, I had things to do too. We haven't talked for some time, I wonder if everything's fine. I had other stuff on me mind, I'm sure you did too, but I just had to tell you this my friend... hey I miss you.

People that are meant to be together always find their way in the end.

We've gone our separate ways and I know it's for the best, but sometimes I wonder, will I ever have friends like you again?

I miss all the little things. Like him driving with his hand resting on my knee and the way wed share a big gooey ice cream. But I especially miss the hot nights in those motel rooms when he was all around me, the taste, and the scent and the feel of him. And Id fall asleep in his arms, with the sound of his heartbeat being the last thing I heard before going to sleep. I ache with longing.

I've been laying here all night, listening to the rain. Talking to my heart and trying to explain. Why sometimes I catch myself wondering what might have been. Yes I do think about you, every now and then.

In this weird twisted way, I know you miss me liking you, not because I want to believe it's true, but because you'll never find a girl that can put up with you like I did; you'll never find a girl who will care as much as I did, because no one will waste all there love on someone like you, like I did.

If you missed me then I'm sorry I didn't stay away longer, I like being missed.

Just the thought of being with you tomorrow is enough to get me through today.

It's YOU. You mean everything to me... you are the first thought in my head in the morning when I wake up; my last thought before I go to bed. You smile at me in my dreams... when you are sad, I fell sad, and when I see your true smile, I feel incredible, like there is no other thing around and all I can see is you.

The best feeling in the world is to be millions of miles away and still be able to picture his eyes.

Sometimes, no matter how much faith we have, we lose people. But you never forget them. And sometimes, it's those memories that give us the strength to go on.

I tell you goodnight with tears in my eyes, I wish I was there curled up by your side, Time passes, But not fast enough, I try to be strong. But I'm not that tough, When I feel you embrace it will be all right, But my heart aches for you on this lonely night.

When I'm not there... do you think of me? When you're sad and something's bothering you... do you wish I were there to help comfort you? When you've had a long hard day... do you smile knowing that soon you'll be seeing me, and everything will seem better, even if it's just for a moment? When you lay down at night... do you look back and cherish the new memories you've made with me? And when you get up in the morning, does everything inside of you smile, knowing that this will be another day that we'll be together? because that's how I think of you...
I can still remember just the way you taste.

I want to be in your arms, where you hold me tight and never let me go.

Hug me when I'm there, miss me when I'm not, kiss me every day, and love me for all eternity.

If home is where the heart is, then wherever you are, that's my home.

I just want to hug you, but your are 480 some miles away, what I wouldn't do for a hug.

I wish that you were here or that I were there, or that we were together anywhere!

Before I sleep and after I wake up and all the hours in between ... you occupy my mind. So, practically every moment of the day you are in my thoughts. I miss you.

When you feel alone, just look at the spaces between your fingers, remember that in those spaces you can see my fingers locked with yours forever.

Each time I miss you, a star falls down from the sky. So, if you looked up at the sky and found it dark with no stars, it is all your fault. You made me miss you too much!

Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them, you are one day closer to the next time you will.

I miss you most when I'm sad. I miss you when I'm lonely. But most of all, I miss you when I'm happy.

I am here and you are there - one of us is in the wrong place!

Sometimes I miss you so much, I just want to rip you out of my dreams and hug you!

Not being able to hold you has got to be the hardest thing I've ever had to do. But I get to look forward to the next time you are in my arms; your smile only inches away from mine getting closer and closer until at last... our smiles meet. Something that beautiful... that's what keeps me going.

I miss the way you used to hug me, I miss the way you used to kiss my lips, but most of all I miss the way you held me and my heart. I miss you...

What I have with him is worth it. It is worth every lonely night, every tear I cry from missing him, and the pain I feel from not having him close. It is worth it because he is my one and only. When I picture myself years from now, I see only him. No matter how painful distance can be, not having him in my life would be worse.

If my heart had wings I would fly to you and lie beside you as you dream. - Faith Hill

Late at night when all the world is sleeping, I stay up and think of you. And I wish on a star that somewhere, you are thinking of me too.

It's not a 'good-bye', only a long 'I'll see you later.'

When I miss you, sometimes I listen to music or look at pictures of you, not to remind me of you but to make me feel as if I'm with you. It makes me forget the distance and capture you.

No matter how far you are, no matter how long I'm gone, you will always be with me. I will see you always as clear as day, for our love knows no boundries and never will, because you see... our hearts are one, and mine is always home.

sampai detik ini , menit , dan jam ini .. gua tetep merindukan sosok dia , seseorang yang pernah memberi warna sama hidup gua . Mengajarkan segala hal buat gua .. gua ngga pernah bisa melupakkannya karena dia uda jadi bagian dari hidup gua ini

i miss damn much , boy :'(

penyiksaan batin

2009-06-07T19:24:00.003+07:00

kehidupan gua udah kembali kayak dulu dimana gua senang-senang , ketawa-ketawa , tapi uda sekitar dua hari yang lalu , pas gua ngeliat suatu tempat (sensor) selalu keinget kejadian sekitar setaon lebih yang lalu , pas saat itu gua kira bakal cuman sebentar , ternyata nggak , dia kembali ke dalam ingetan gua sampe karang , abis pulang sneng2 jalan2 ma fam ke ps ma sency di mobil pas gua lagi istirahat di mobil sambil denger ipod .

all my memories of him dateng ke otak gua .. yah Tuhan ... kenapa memory itu arus diingetin lagi , kenapa memory itu terasa idup pas keinget ? kenapa gua arus ngelepasin dia! kenapa??
kenapa perasaan ini balik lagi ? padahal udah mayan lama gua lupain? kenapa arus dia yang gua sayang .. kenapa arus dia yang bener-bener ngebuat gua ngerti arti mempunya seseorang dan mencintai seseorang begitu dalam .. kenapa dia?

gua nyesel..gua nyesel..gua nyesel

gua juga ngga mau nyeselin masa lalu , tapi itu yang gua rasain , penyesalan gua bener-bener dalam , pengen banget gua ketemu dia , sehari ngelakuin aktivitas bareng , tapi gua tau itu bakal buat gua makin egois .. gua juga bingung apa yang harus gua lakuin .

never regret yesterday , today is today , and make a sweet things tomorrow

itu yang dibilang sama kristian . gua tau , jangan nyesel tapi qlo itu memory indah slalu dateng trus menerus trus nampak idup dalam ingatan siapa yang ngga gila juga?
gua inget semua memory , semua perkataan , semua kenangan , semua pemberian dia sama gua , meski kecil , dia ngebuat gua bener-bner ngerasa gua punya seseorang dalam hidup gua .
gua akuin , gua bener-bener ngerinduin sosok dia ...

oh my god ! gua bener2 bingung arus gimana .! gua ga bakal bisa liat dia , ngedenger suaranya ..gua ga tau lagi apa yang arus gua kluarin dari perasaan gua .

i love you , always.... you're the only one .
still i pray for your happinneessss wiithhh your only one

I love my eyes when U look into them,
I love my name when U say it,
I love my heart when U love it,
I love my life when U are in it.

capek , lelah , lesu , letih ..

2009-06-06T12:41:00.002+07:00

hari ini , bener-bener ngga ada semangat gitu gua buat ngadepin ini hari . Mungkin gara-gara kemaren jadi stamina gua ilang semua , badan sakit-sakit , kaki-tangan sakit juga . yaps, gua juga mau crita soal kemaren sih ..
yaah kemaren itu classmeeting di skolah , ada lomba basket sama bola doang , gua di masukkin suruh maen bola ==''
mayan lah kelas gua lawan kelas XI-ips menang masuk final , tapi kalah di final , udah panas-panas abis maen futsal ampe rumah baru aja ganti baju , gua ngikut berenang di tirta mas bareng ngko gua yg pertama ma kedua :)
ampe pegel banget gua memanjang berapa kali non-stop awalnya trus udah rada lama , kita bertiga kaya mengenang masa lalu gitu maen-maen ber3 tapi ngebayangin lucu ajj , ngko pertama gua bentar ag nimang anak , ngko gua kedua , kuliah trus kita masih kaya gitu ketawa-ketawa ampe sakit perut . wkwkwk :D
abis berenang gua makan nasi bawaan dari rumah . cuman dikit sih , trus makan somay , last ...
kita jemput kaka ipar gua di apartemen trus nyari makan lagi . haha xD nggak terkontrol makannya gitu . Pulang-pulang stamina gua ngilang , kaki-tangan sakit smua , ampe gemeteran tdur ajj tadi malem ngga pules (sigh)
alhasil? ini hari gua males ngapa-ngapain nggak ada ketertarikan juga , rencana sih banyak buat pergi-pergi , tapi tetep aja males . gua jadi bingung ndiri , yang enak ngapain yah , kayaknya udah bosen kemana-kemana, kemaren sih baru rencana , besok mau ke pik bareng satu kuarga ngga tau deh jadi apa nggak .. moga-moga aja jadi ! :D

super duper Exciting dey ..

2009-06-04T21:06:00.004+07:00

well hey! oyasumi nasai :D

what a day.. akhirnya jalan sama besties gua yang baru balik dari singapur , Irene . Welcome home,girl .
kemaren dia baru balik and hari ini kita jalan bareng , pagi-pagi skitar jam 9an gitu dia nelpon gua yang baru aja kebangun sama telpon die buat mastiin jam berapa kita bakal jalan yah gua bilang aja 12 to 1an.
dan kita pun bertemu di TGA bookstore , miss you a lot! abis itu jalan-jalan bingung mau kemana , kita makan soursally , sambil ngabisin waktu . Bawa hoki juga tuh (jangan geer kau ren!)
gua mesen mochi sama longan , eh dikasi almond ama longan? pasti dong yah gua komplain . Mba nya sih mintaa maap trus ditambain mochi deh , NGGA nambah duit lagi . wkwkwk gua kira diitung nambah topping:D
kita cukup lama juga di sour sally , ngobrol-ngobrol , cekikikkan , bercanda-canda ampe sakit perut , lama-lama bosen juga trus lanjut jalan luntang lantung , awalnya mau ke happy puppy tapi yaaaaahh you know lah , harganya nambah2 mlulu beda ma nav , jadinya kita nggak jadi trus kembali bingung mau kemana . Mau nonton , tapi gua nya uda nnton semua vilm yang ada jadinya , kita naek taxi ke moi .

terjadi lagi percakapan yang bodoh diantara kita , jadinya ikut2 bodoh
gua : ren , naek taxi mahal coi , masa bajaj? udah keren2 trun moi naeknya bajaj.. ngga banget deh
irene : wkwkwk , ya ya ya .. taxi dehhh
gua : iya , tapi berapa?
irene : gua sih sekitar setengah taon yang lalu naek , pertama sih 4.500
gua : zZzz....

akhirnya kita jalan ke mol 3 dan???? nggak ada taxi rupanya. gua juga bilang sama irene pas perjalanan ke mol 2

gua : ren , sampe di mol 2 ngga ada taxi juga berarti kita ngga boleh ke moi nih
irene : iye iye .. mang ga boleh yol .. liat aja.

ternyata bnyak di mol 2, naek lah kita . dan langsung harganya?? 6000 , hebat skali .. gua udah nahan ketawa aja , irene muka udah merah padem nahan ketawa , yah otomatis gua juga pengen ketawa . wkwkw
pas nyampe di moi skitar harganya 11.400 , disini bikin kesel abis2an . kan dikasi duit ama irene 20 rbu ama gopek .

abang : ini maksutnya apa?!
gua : ???? bayar lah..

abang : iya tau , tapi gimana .. balikin 9000, apa 10.000 gitu ..
gua : (yauda gara2 bingung juga gua ambil gopeknya + kesel + ambil 1000) yauda2 nih ceceng , kasih gua cebannya ...
abang : (ngasih duit sambil nyolot )
gua :( ambil aje ....)

beuh tuh abang sih bener2 ngeselin abis , yang paling bikin kesel tuh pas dia nnya ,"ini maksutnya apa?" (emosi) but yah whatevee lah?
akhirnya kita jalan2 kemudiaaaannnnn! maen2 kayak anak yang norak skali , maen gelombang b2an doang , pas sepi beud , sama yang puter-puteran itu . gua paling nggak tahan maen gitu2an gua pasti geli ma ketawa2 trus ampe lemes .. wkwkwkwkwk
yah abis itu sih kita ke blitz buat nntn my bloody valentine . trus kita nunggu tuh vilm ampe lemot di blitz gara-gara kita ber2 udah kecapean mau jalan , DAN duit rupiah nya si irene abis , mau ambil di bank tapi danamond di moi lom ada, jadi kita ngabisin waktu sambil duduk and vto2 ria
here we go :

baru sekitar 2 hari yang lalu nntn drag me to hell , skarang my bloody valentine . GOOD JOB memang gua >< udah pas pertama milih seat , cuman ada 2 orang doang di satu studionya . AAaaaa menggila gua , tapi untungny pas nnton lumayan rame , ngga sih intinya di sekeliling gua ma irene depan belakang tuh ada orang hahaha :D
slama vilm bisa gila juga gua , buset deh sadis banget , tapi yah mayan deh ^^ abis itu gua ama irene langsung deh minta jemput soalny dah skitar jam 7an , nggak enak ma nyokap irene juga plus tumben gua capek . biasanya qlo dah jalan ampe malem banget ..
tapi bener.. nih hari sih yaaaah .. menyenangkan , yoi ngga ren?
hehehehehe :D

only you (and you alone)

2009-06-03T18:37:00.002+07:00

yaah , lagi mellow-mellow gini gua tiba-tiba di itunes gua muter lagunya only you(and you alone) alvin and the chipmunks . ngingetin banget sama seseorang dulu dimana gua lagi seneng-senengnya ama lagu ini pas ma dia .. damn miss him so much .!

Only you can make this world seem right
Only you can make the darkness bright.
Only you and you alone
can thrill me like you do
and fill my heart with love for only you.

Only you can make this change in me,
for it's true, you are my destiny.
When you hold my hand,
I understand the magic that you do.

You're my dream come true,
my one and only you.

everytime ~~she~~ he walks by I can't stop staring
hooked on ~~her~~ him looks and that smile that ~~she's~~ he's wearing
~~she~~ he looks at me and I freeze, I can't go on
unless it's with you ~~girl~~ boy, cause you are the one, i got
so much to give, long as i live you're my only
one thing I cant stand's the thought of you lonely, so
open up your eyes, realize my love is true
and it's meant for o-only you

Only you and you alone
can thrill me like you do
and fill my heart with love for only you,
Only you

meski gua tau , gua juga udah bener-bener sekarang lupa soal dia karena gua mikir useless gua mikirin dia mlulu gua udah ngebuang waktu gua slama setaon lebih ngerenung , nangis , blahblah..yang ternyata membuang waktu , moment , dan energi gua saat itu.

but you know what?
you're the one who can make me feel Perfect
hope you'll happy with your only one, boy.

insane me

2009-06-03T18:08:00.002+07:00

gua bingung , gua harus gimana , beberapa hari belakangan ini perasaan gua mulai beranjak kembali dimana sebelum gua mengenal ep dimana bisa dibilang dia yg ngajarin ke perasaan gua dimana dia bisa buat gua ngerti gimana rasanya kehilangan seseorang , gimana rasanya punya seseorang , gimana rasanya menyayangi orang . Bahkan saat itu gua sendiri bingung kenapa gua bisa separah itu patah hatinya , sampe-sampe that's heartache ruined everything! (sigh).
sekarang gua bener-bener takut , gua takut gua mulai kembali dimana kaya dulu sebelum gua ketemu ep . bisa dibilang gua juga nggak mau perasaan gua kaya gua ama ep , perasaan itu ngebuat gua juga bukan kayak diri gua juga . bingung bener-bener bingung , jujur gua capek ,BANGET malahan. gua juga nggak mau nyakitin perasaan orang , jadi inilah yang gua putuskan sekarang . Tuhan moga-moga aja nggak salah langkah lagi . Sepenuhnya bener-bener gua pasrahin let it flow,gua cuma pengen gua sneng bisa ngelupain masalah-masalah gua dulu , kalo emang ga bisa dilupain yaah untuk sementara waktu gua belakangi dulu . Gua juga bukan orang yang bisa selalu senyum didepan orang , karena gua sendiri punya masalah .. Gua emang ngga mau kasih tau banyak orang apa itu masalah gua karena gua fikir ngga penting orang tau , tapi yang bikin kadang gua jengkel juga tuh omongan orangnya pas gua lagi diem ato apa , dipikir malah gua marah ato kesel ato berubah . Banyak orang ngomong gitu sama gua. Gua hanya Butuh waktu dimana gua bisa sendiri

KIM BUM

2009-05-31T20:23:00.006+07:00

gara-gara adanya film Boys before Flower yang gua tonton , baru kali ini gua bener-bener bisa sukain orang KOREA . yang padahal aslinya nnton korea aja gua males gara-gara ngga suka aja
jujur .. sumpah ♥KIM BUM♥ menarik perhatian gua banget ! cakep , imut banget sumpahhh!!!!

♥♥♥♥ him damn much, KIM BUM ♥♥♥♥

pengisi liburan

2009-05-29T09:27:00.004+07:00

ohaiyo ..
okay deh .. say HOLIDAY , cihui abis ulangan telah usai dan saatnya bersantai-santai
kemaren gua ke ktc , nemenin nyokap yang disuruh bokap buat beli cat printer gitu . nah skalian aja uda lama mata gua nggak ngelaba dvd ! skalian nuker dvd bleach gua juga sih ..
ampe sana , pas gua kan uda langganan , gara-gara gua penasaran . yang lagi hot kena penyakit Boys before flowers yang katanya meteor garden versi korea . yauda gua beli , padahal ngga demen korea gua , demennya taiwan ♥ ♥

alhasil gua beli 2 seri sama bleach , tapi bleach blom da yang baru :(
here we go ..

gua sih lagi nnton boys before flower dlu , awalnya gua biasa aja malah ngantuk soalnya kan emang aslinya ga demen korea jadi gimanaaa gitu nah pas eps kedua mulai kocak sih , cwonya lumayan deh .. bener-bener mirip banget sama meteor garden !!

qlo yang kedua judulnya knock knock loving you , cowo yang paling kanan , OMG! namanya MING DAO♥♥♥

i ♥ him damn much!!!
ngga sabar ngabisin nih 2 seri . ehehehe , indahnya liburan .

oiya , hari ini gua juga punya kabar , gua denger .. ternyata tuh mantan ngko gua cwe yang brengsek skali , coba dibayangkan , pas dia pacaran ama ngko gua , dia masih pacaran ma cwo nye .. dan katanya gara2 ngko gua lebih kaya .. well , emang dari awal mereka pacaran gua uda sumpah mampus nggak suka ! apa lagi copycaters, and childish nya ! gees.. whatthefuck?

gua sneng banget ngko gua dah putus blom lama ini , apa ag setelah denger ? emosi banget , ngko gua dengernya ampe speechless. but that's the truth .. the truth almost always painful ..
hope you get better girl ko .. jangan kaya tuh cwe ! amit-amit banget sih lo!

hw,

2009-05-28T13:02:00.002+07:00

dapet hw dari Indri (thx yah)
FOUR NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
yol , yoland , yolai ,yoyol

FOUR MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE:
secret (:

FOUR THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES:
sms , drink , watch-ing , eat

FOUR WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
dreaming, shopping , laughing , eating

FOUR PEOPLE YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
all of them especially "him"

FOUR GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE :
neu clothes,shoes ,etc , new laptop ,
FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES (CURRENTLY):
Facebook-ing. texting. eating. breathing.

FOUR PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION:
japan,italy , taiwan ,paris

FOUR FAVORITE DRINKS:
mineral water. chocolate milk , yoghurt , lemon tea
FOUR THINGS ALWAYS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
phone , ipod , wallet , baby cologne

FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
Purple , green , pink , yellow

TOP FOUR HANGOUTS:
mall , cinema , BK , excelso

TOP FOUR YOU LOVE SO MUCH:
God, family,bestfriends,him.

TOP FOUR ASIAN ACTORS:
mike he , ming dao , king one , sam wang

FOUR "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU:
handphone , ipod , laptop ,...

FOUR FAVOURITE "UNUSUAL" SONGS:
hehh?

FOUR EVENTS YOU WILL NEVER FORGET:
last year , mom's burfday , ...

FOUR THINGS YOU OFTEN DID WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
maen dkter-dokteran , crying , watching cartoon , playing dolls

TOP FOUR WHO YOU WANT TO ANSWER THIS SURVEY:
indriana , jekaa, gaby ,stepha

TOP FOUR REASONS WHY YOU ANSWERED THIS SURVEY:
1. i've been tagged
2. iseng
3. menghabiskan waktu
4. bosen

2009-05-27T09:17:00.000+07:00

Cheeks moistened by the rain
Had the scent of tears
A traveler
Who has a kind gaze

A nostalgic music
Quietly echoes
Memories that I can’t recall
Wander

Dreams take off with little wings
To the place where thought can’t vanish
Together
We overcome the distant sea and sky

In the dark night
It is illuminating me
I want to see
You
Who has a kind gaze

hari menenangkan .

2009-05-27T07:34:00.003+07:00

ohayo mina...^^

waduh kesel gua .. sneng juga sih maren gua udah kelar final exams gua yang bener-bener memakan banyak energi dan pikiran serta waktu , uda sminggu gua ulum . dan finally kelar juga
kemaren pulang dari sekolah akhirnya jam 1an gua gara-gara ngantuk yah gua ktduran , tdur pules plus lama bangun-bangun gua malah hachi-hachi meler . omg! nyeksa , eh malemnya jam 9an gua ngerasa sinus gua mulai mau kambuh terbukti , pala sakit , ama daerah pipi kiri gua yang emang lebih parah mulai sakit n berat . aaarghh
ngga kuat tidur ag , eh kebangun , pas liat jam ? jam 12 ternyata , sakit ati gua liatnya , dari sejak saat itu gua jadi susah tidur pules malah kebangun-bangun mlulu .
jam 4an kebangun pula . untungnya gua pas bangun itu udah nggak meler lagi , jadi beban gua berkurang .

bangun-bangun udah pagi beneran kali ini , skitar jam tengah 7an gitu trus sms . nyoba buat tdur ag nggak bisa yahh.. mau ngga mau , gua up date ipod gua dengan lagu-lagu YUI yang lagi gua baru download :D
trus gua juga buka fb ma plurk gua deh sama ngeblogg pagi-pagi gara-gara kurang kerjaan . Snengnya nih hari libur , gara-gara hari ini ngga her kimia ato komputer gua .. tapi jumat yah gua her inggris , kaget juga inggris gua merah , tapi mau gimana? enjoy aja
bagi yang her , gudluck yah ..

good bye days

2009-05-25T22:05:00.001+07:00

So now, I’m going to meet you
that’s what I’ve decided
this song in my pocket
I want you to hear it

softly raising the volume
I’ve already tried and made sure

oh Good-bye days, now
there’s a feeling of change
up until yesterday, so long
because there’s an uncool kindness beside me
~with you

I hand the other earphone to you
it flows slowly
this moment

are you loving well?
even though you lose your way sometimes

oh Good-bye days, now
the heart that started to change, alright
because there’s an uncool kindness beside me
~with you

if possible, I’d want to
not think any sad thoughts
but you’ll show up, right?
that time, with a smile
even if you could say something like,
“Yeah hello!! my friend”
that’d be nice

when we’re humming the same song
be next to me, I wish
I’m glad I met
an uncool kindness

…goodbye days

mengesalkan

2009-05-25T20:20:00.004+07:00

akhirnya besok ulangan gua trakir . hha , jadinya nih hari bisa ngepost stelah skian lama (lebay)

sbetulnya ngga ada yang special sih cuman aja gua ag pengen crita , gua bingung mau crita ama siapa (sigh) well ,gua bingung aja nih ama diri gua ndiri kenapa jadi begini .
ngebetein banget deh hari ini. perasaan gua diombang ambing lagi ! omg. moga-moga deh cepet-cepet ilang soalnya bener-bener ngga enak , jangan sampe perasaan gua kaya gua sama si ep (nama disamarkan) ampe lama akhirnya baru karang-karang ini gua mulai trlupa dan gara-gara sikap dia yg belum lama ini , gua jadi kesel sama dia . Lagian emang bukan jodoh kali ,yaa ga?

semoga aja semua yang gua jalanin ini menuju yang terbaik buat gua , tuhan tolong kasih jalan .. kalo emang ngga bagus , tolong diperlihatkan biar ngga lagi nyesel di kemudian hari
gua bener-bener ngga mau kaya gua yang dulu , yang otak gua cuman keisi sama tuh orang yang ternyata menurut gua ngga penting buat gua pikirin , bahkan sampe karang pas gua bilang "tuh orang ngga penting " ati gua mulai berontak , dan mau bilang kalo gua juga kangen sama dia . gua tau itu namanya gua egois , tapi mau gimana? gua juga tau kisahnya udah jauh lamaaa banget . but somehow, gua suka kebayang saat-saat dimana gua bener-bener ngarep , ampe nangis qlo ngingetnya . bodoh memang (sigh) , sekalinya ketemu gua harap moment yang menyenangkan trnyata ngga..

tuhan plis kasih jalan buat kehidupan yang sekarang .. bener-bener ngga mau terpuruk kaya dlu,kasih yang emang bener-bener terbaik :'(

You just said the worst thing you could ever say
Well, I don't understand why it just can't be this way
I'm crying because of you

[Chorus]
I hate, yes I hate all your lies
I'm so scared
And I fear what I see in your eyes
But I hope, and I dream, and I wish, and I pray
That you have some love left for me
Do you have some love left for me?

You just did the worst thing you could ever do to me
Well, I don't understand why and I cannot see
That it's hurting because of you

[Chorus]

Do you have some love left for me?
Do you have some love left for me?

[Chorus...]
I hate, yes I hate all your lies
I'm so scared
And I fear what I see in your eyes
(you don't feel anything)
But I hope, and I dream, and I wish, and I pray
That you have some love left for me
Do you have some love left for me?

award

2009-05-25T20:01:00.003+07:00

oke deh gua dapet award dari Vania (makasih yah)

peraturan nya :
buatlah postingan yang memuat gambar award ini di blog kamu.
sebutkan siapa yang memberikan award beserta link blognya.
hadiahkan award ini kepada 10 orang.
kunjungi blognya dan beritahukan kalau ada award dari kamu untuknya.
lakukan hal yang sama seperti yang memberikan award ke kamu

award ini untuk :
1.irene
2.becky
3.chaca
4.ivonee
5.ivana
6.chelle

yg mau ambil jah dehhh~ (: for FREE

2009-05-23T14:51:00.003+07:00

honestly i don't know what i want to do right now. today is like.. a day without activities. arghhh i wanna scream loud outtt! btw there's a homework from ntand .. (tengs darlz)

1. 5 things found in my bag

wallet
handphone
baby cologne
ipod

2. 5 things found in my purse

movie tickets
money
photos
cards

3. 5 favourite things in my room

bed
dvd player
television
laptop
mirror

4. 5 things I always wanted to do

study hard
be a good girl
HAVE FUN

5. 5 things i currently into

blogging
study
facebook
plurk
twitter

the person who inspired you now is : no one

your five impressions of her : what the...

tag to : giovani , fajar , jessica ... yg mau ngerjain bolehhh~

welcome exams :'(

2009-05-18T12:14:00.003+07:00

first of all .. i wanna say

Happy Birthday,EDU!
wish you all the best!
~trio~

hari pertama gua ulangan umum , KIMIA sama B.ind , yaah Kimia sih nih bisa ngerjainnya , moga-moga aja deh ngga merah (amin) . Nah kalo B.ind , yaah yang mau dipelajarin juga bingung, jadi semuanya emang kalo b.ind tuh ngga pernah belajar ..
dan alhasil? whatthehell?
apaa coba yang diomongin , sama pilihan ma wacana ngga ada yang bener (sigh)
jadi kita semua ngerjain ikutin feeling aja deh , yang mana yang yakin .. Untung aja yang jaga Miss mora , jadi ngerjain nyontek-nyontek bisa .. hehehehe

pas udah kelar , gua ama Yuni ngeguyur EDU yang lagi ulang taon , dari tadi dia sok diem-diem aja , haha , trus guyur masih mau lari-lari lagi . hahaha .. jadi sblum di jemput gua maen-maen sirem-sirem deh ,
LAST , sblum pulang foto doonggg , trio (:

here you go ..

mantap yah du , kena sirem dari duo ..
sireman pertama dari kita berdua du (:
ditunggu traktirannya abis
ULUM! ^^

well , besok hari kedua , trus menurut gua paling susah , SEJARAH ama GEO .. apalan banyak banget lagi ..

wish me luck for exams yah

saturday

2009-05-17T17:07:00.004+07:00

kay dehhh .. gua mau crita soal kejadian sabtu maren dlu (:
*sigh* pagi-pagi gua udah bangun , sekitar jam 7an gtu buat berenang di sunter , soalnya ambil nilai ulum 3 gaya ! punggung,dada, sama bebas.

ternyata jam 8 aja masih lom ada si joko (guru or)
nyampe2 skitar jam tengah 9 kurang gtu . gua tetep aja nunggu disono bareng yang laen ada juga sih yang maen capsa, tapi ngga lama joko dateng trus kita masuk . awalnya ditawarin kita yang cwe-cwe anak klas 10 ma dluan apa ngga tapi kita memutuskan anak kelas 2 dluan aja , biar kita bisa latian2 dlu (:

udah nunggu lama skitar sejem an kita renang-renang di air yang sangat amad menjijikan! trus gua ambil nilai juga deh . bodo amad deh nilai berapa , kita juga ngga mau renang qlo ga ambil nilai sebetulnya , soalnya airnya tuh omg! disgusting~
alhasil.... rambut gua sekarang bener2 RUSAK! kering ngga jelas ! wtf..

akhirnya gua pulang deh ..
ampe rumah pala gua sumpah sakit abis , ngga tau deh kenapa . bener-bener sakit . abis beres2 segala macem gua ketiduran di sofa , eh kebangun gara2 ngko gua telp , nawarin mau nntn angels and demons apa ga , gua bilang mau ..

trus gua siap2 buat nnton jem 18.15 di artha gading ..

ANGELS AND DEMONS .. bener-bener top abis , keren banget ada adegan lucunya juga . trus bener-bener mantep deh . susah di deskripsiin !
5 stars

sebelum itu vilm mulai , gua ama ngko gua liat triller2 gitu kan trus ada iklan vilm horror gitu , DRAG ME TO HELL . hahaha :D lucu abis , ngko gua xpressinya pas kaget .. malahan gua yang santai , padahal gua kan yang pengecut :D
abis nntn itu udah malem gitu kira2 jem 9 lewat .. trus langsung aja gua pulang , sakit pala gua bener-bener ngga tertahankan . langsung deh gua tidur dengan rambut yang rusak!

nah hari ini , bangun-bangun pala gua masih sakit banget bahkan lebih parah padahal maren sblum tidur gua udah makan panadol.
gua langsung disuruh makan ama nyokap, trus minum panadol lagi , and.. jam 11 les KIMIA gua.
tapi udah mendingan abis makan panadol kedua kalinya . jadi pas ngeles ngga sakit kaya pas tadi
trus gua jadi NIAT gitu belajar kimia , pas dah jam 1 . kan buat session kedua , eh gua lanjut *wow*
tapi sblum itu , gua , dio , iis , ama fanny ke miroso dlu buat istirahat . mana udah panas banget lagi!
balik-balik , udah ada jenet , angga , tomy , dion , ama adnil deh . kelar2 gua jam 3an gitu ..

duh .. moga-moga ul.um ini , gua bisa smua . ngga ada yang merah deh . *aminn*